| Friday, March 11th, 2005 |
| 4:57 pm |
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| Tuesday, February 8th, 2005 |
| 1:57 pm |
Hopefully it will be fun
I have a date tonight..my first since Matt..that was back in the first week of Jan. I have been talking to this guy for quite awhile and never was able to get together, so now he moved closer and we are amking the effort tonight. He is really nice and pretty damn hot. looking forward to it..just food and a movie..no big deal..very casual. Not looking for anything specific now. For the first time in awhile I can truly say I just wanna have fun and date whomever and whenever and not stress about boyfriends and relationships. Knowing me though..I will come back later this week and gush about how Im all in looooooove with this guy. It's a curse, Im sure of it S. |
| Monday, February 7th, 2005 |
| 4:03 pm |
All moved...well mostly
All put away and pretty much done. Bought the bookcase I wanted last night..so it looks better now in my room. Just need to clear out some little stuff from the old place and then it will be alllllllllllll done. I am going to try and have a little house warming in a few weeks..y'all will be notified |
| Monday, January 31st, 2005 |
| 8:48 am |
THANK YOU
To all of the friends who helped me move...again. No words could thank them enough. With the fact that with this joint problem I have I can't lift shit..they did most everything. So a huge thanks to My nepwew Jason, David of course, Tiiiiiiiiimmmmmmmy-thankyou thankyou, Michael-he might be an ex but still stepped up and helped, Andreas-always a goodtime even if it's moving, Carlos, and my co-worker Paul. And then double thanks to Michael and Tim for helping again yesterday. Michael had to get all the kitchen stuff out of the old place and then Tim, Michael and I started putting away at the new place. A couple more days and it should be pretty much done. SO, BIG HUGS Y'ALL Scott |
| Wednesday, January 12th, 2005 |
| 2:05 pm |
Happy Wednesday
Or Hump Day if you prefer.. Short post...lots has gone on Still in pain..did more blood tests..doc doesn't have an appt open til Feb ...grrr Moving in the next couple weeks..my friend Marq lost a roommate and I need to be out by the 15 th of Feb...so it worked out great..woo hoo Matt and I broke up today..lesson learned..Im not capable of a long distance relationship Lates |
| Thursday, December 30th, 2004 |
| 11:29 am |
2005
Sounds like we should flying cars and Jetson type houses in 2005. That would be cool!! But we don't :( Been really busy with work. Wishing I wasn't, my boyfriend surprised me and flew in a week early to celebrate xmas with me. So he has been here a week, doesn't have to leave till the 2nd..woo hoo. We are looking at apartments. My lease is up at the end of Jan and my roommates are going to go live on their own. So he is applying at university jobs in this area. He currently works at the University in San Bernadino. Still taking lots of Vicodin and Motrin to try to get this pain under control...no luck yet. As I said before it makes you very weary. Matt has been very caring and understanding about it, I just wish I didn't feel so crappy while he was here. At any rate..everyone take care and have a wonderful New Years. And special hugs to my girls...Jen, Holly and Carrie..muah!! |
| Monday, December 20th, 2004 |
| 12:15 am |
The Good and the Bad
Lets start with the good: As I said in my last post awhile back..I have met a wonderful man..he grows more wonderful as time goes by. He will be coming up to stay with me for a week beggining on the 29th and I cannot wait :) The Bad: I have been horribly sick for over a month. It started at the end of Nov. The doc said I have a seriously infected prostate..now before all the jokes start flying, this infection is rare and does NOT come from anything sexual..as the doc said...Im just lucky. But the frustrating thing it makes you feel awful for a long time and they give you really really high level nasty antibiotics for looong time..and those make you feel awful also. So on top of that ugliness, I have also had just terrible joint pain and body aches for about 3 weeks. Finally today it got so bad that I went to Los Gatos Community Hospital ER. I could barely move...felt like a 90 year old on his way out. So when I got in the ER, they did some initial tests and found that I was dehydrated to the max..so I got to feast on 2 bags of IV fluid..while they had the IV in, they went ahead a gave me some Tordal(the next step AFTER morphine) for the pain..yes it was that bad. Then they did a bunch of tests..without getting into anything to doctorish..there is a test that tells them the amount of inflammation that is raging in all your joints. It should read between 0-15...6 months ago when I had mild pain I was at a 17..today it came back a 32..basically double what it should be. So now Im home...doped up on 800mg Motrin AND Vicodin and still wishing I had less pain. Whats is all mean??...More tests to determine why all my joints are so inflammed and then a course of treatment..whatever that may be. Constant pain at that level seriously wears you down..I have zero energy..and even stupid stuff like typing this entry takes ALOT of effort. Back to the good: I have a wonderful man who even though he lives 6 hours away, was on the phone with friends up here making sure I had someone to get my prescription and check on me. I have wonderful,fantstic friends like David, Andy and Cody who drop what they are doing to make sure I have everything I need. And Tim who whether he knows it or not sends enough positive thoughts my way to make a differance. It's 12:30 and Im waiting for the next round of the Vicodin/Motrin cocktail to kick in and make me drowsy..maybe tonight I will actually sleep..haven't done much of that the last month. Won't be online this week..most likely be at home the whole week..but the cell is always on. Just don't take offense if I sound crabby. Merry Holidays and warmest wishes for a Happy Xmas Scott |
| Wednesday, December 8th, 2004 |
| 2:50 pm |
Happy but sick
I have found a wonderful man...I am on cloud 9 and so is he. Not saying anything else..do NOT want to jinx it. So I am very happy, but also have alot of sickness in me...not going into details...just say that I am tired of infections and antibiotics..another month of them..which means no drinking :( Tonight is the Clear Channel SF Holiday party..should be a good time. Hotel Nikko in SF..same place as last year. No drinking though...so I guess I will have get stupid without alcohol. Laters-ez S. |
| Wednesday, December 1st, 2004 |
| 1:33 pm |
Meanwhile back on earth..
Last week I got to go to the Green Day concert...I cannot thank Tim enough..hugs and squeezes. What a fantastic friend he is..not only for sharing the concert, but for listening and being a great person :) I have seen Green Day 3 times before...but this was by far the BEST concert I have been to in a long time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...they were soooooooooooooooooooooooo good. Sugarcult was awesome too..NFG...ehhh. So I went and got the new Green Day CD...I am sooooo addicted now..the album is like heroin..I cannot stop listening. I read an interview with Billy Jo in Instinct magazine..they asked about his use of the word "faggot" on the album..he uses it to make a point...it's NOT derogatory..if you listen..you will get it. My 2 fave songs..one is called "Holiday" the other is "Boulevard of Broken Dream...see lyrics below for Boulevard. Boulevard of Broken Dreams...Green Day I walk a lonely Road The only one I have ever known Don't know where it goes But it's home to me and I walk alone I walk the empty streets On the blvd of Broken Dreams Where the city sleeps And Im the only one and I walk alone I walk aloneI walk aloneI walk alone My Shadows the only one that walks beside me My Shallow heart's the only thing thats beating Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me Till then I walk alone Im walking down the line That divides me somewhere in my mind On the borderline of the edge And where I walk alone Read between the lines of what's Fucked up and everything's alright Check my vital signs to know Im still alive And I walk alone |
| Tuesday, November 30th, 2004 |
| 4:08 pm |
I think this year sucks ass
So much has happened to make it suck. So the following is just another example of getting clubbed over the head again and again. Don't get me wrong...lots of good has happened too..just seems to always get overshadowed by awful things. Sooooooooooooo the Childrens mother calls last night..to let me know about the insurance forms she sent in for the kids which I am paying for. Then gently lets me know that she has made a big decision..... She is at the end of this school year, sell her house in Pleasanton and move WITH my kids to Oregon. Now I do totally understand her reasoning, but they are my kids and I am devastated to say the least. In the last 3 years I have had 3 fantastic job opportunities to move out of the state, I have always declined because I wanted to be in my children's lives. And again her reasons are valid, but I feel I will be missing out on most of their growing up. Honestly I don't even know how to process this right now..I keep bouncing back and forth between fits of rage and crying. My brain is sooooooooooo much white noise right now. I gotta go Current Mood:  nauseated |
| Wednesday, November 24th, 2004 |
| 4:25 pm |
Happy T-Day
Well one day early. What a week...catching up from the week off. We won't get into the trip to LA...lets just say I spent time and money..and ended up spending most of the week alone. Never again..if peeps want to see me..they can travel their ass up here. "Ummm now seating Bitter..party of one" I honestly, really hate the single life..not to be cliche...but I am getting too old for this shit. I pictured myself at this age being all settled down and happy. I had that for awhile..I want it back. Eating with the family tomorrow down in Watsonville...then going target shooting on Friday with my bro. I haven't been in awhile...hope my skills aint left me. Maybe sis will go too..she was the Central Valley Womens champ for her age class a couple years ago. I know.. strange...he is gay, but likes to shoot guns..I do..but at paper only. Don't believe in killing anything. Almost done with invoices..uggg. Happy T-day |
| Monday, November 15th, 2004 |
| 9:51 am |
Quick vacation week post
I am off this whooole week...yay me..first entire week off in years. This weekend was kid filled even though I didn't have them Saturday was Dariens last soccer game of the year and they won..their team also won the championship Sunday was Brianna's cheer competition up in Santa Rosa..they won their division and will be going to Nationals in Feb A good weekend for the Simas chitlins :) I am spending my vacation in LA...I met someone on Connexion and I am seriously head over heels about him. He is hella cute, smart, creative, talented, funny as hell and he seems to like me as well. So I am being spontaneous..going to LA and spending my time off with him. Yes, he lives down there. So I am heading out now...first stop..pickup the paycheck Then to my parents and hang with them tonight...and then on to LA tomorrow morn to see my cutie. Sigh...can't wait to get there...it will be the first big trip for my new car. Lates Current Mood:  anxiousCurrent Music: Phantom Soundtrack..for private reasons :) |
| Monday, November 1st, 2004 |
| 6:45 am |
To set the record straight
I haven't commented on the demise of KSJO as of yet, mostly because I wanted to really think about what to say. I started at KSJO in Aug of 1992..a looong time ago. I have busted my ass for years at this station. I have worked for very dept there is. I was to say the least, very emotional on Thursday. VERY EMOTIONAL!!! Having said that...lets talk about why it went away. Of course the first thing everyone will say is "Fucking Clear Channel...blah blah blah"...don't be so fast to make judgements about things you don't know about. First of all KSJO, like all radio stations lives or dies by Arbitron ratings. Just like TV that has it's Nielsen's, we have Arbitron. In the San Jose market there are roughly 24 to 26 rated radio stations. In the past 2 years KSJO has been rated at about 21st or 22nd. Think about that..your favorite TV show would never survive for over 2 years if it was rated that low in the Nielsens...never. Depsite the fact some people think it was making money..it simply isn't true. When the sales dept goes out to sell advertising(which by the way is how we make money) and they present information to the businesses...it's very difficult to sell when your station is consistantly at the bottom of the bareel in ratings. So you end having to reduce the amount it costs to advertise. It's like a big snow ball rolling down hill. Pretty soon everything is out of whack..ad rates, ratings, the amount of spots running..etc. The thing that remains constant is the cost to operate..that doesn't go down..it goes up year after year. I grew up in a family business. I know that if my Dad continued to run a business that was losing money for over 2 years, we would have been out of business very soon. The fact is that corporate hung on for 2 years trying different things, making adjustments and trying to reel in costs. It's called the point of diminishing returns...it doesn't matter how much money and effort you continue to throw at it...the audience simply isn't big enough to get the station back to where it once was. A friend called and said "Oh my god, I can't believe they did this...I mean I don't really listen to KSJO anymore..but I grew up with that station"..DUH...that's been the problem. It's like an old favorite restaurant that closes and you ...man I haven't eaten there in 10 years, but damn it used to be good. So while it's sad and emotional and the end of an era...what do you expect?? it is a business and believe it or not kids...people don't run businesses for the fuck of it..they run them to make money. Im sure if it was your business and your money going out the window..you wouldn't have helf on for 2 years before making a change. Enough said from me..people are going to feel what they feel. Halloween: Friday...was in bed by 10 pm Saturday...had the kids, spent the day on the floor with fucked up back Sunday: Took the kids back at 4pm..was supposed to go on a date, was kind of excited. He flaked..like completely flaked..no returned calls..no show..no nothing. Was gonna go to the movies then with friends..they didn't want to go, so I ended home and in bed by 9:30p Happy Fucked up Halloween for sure |
| Monday, October 25th, 2004 |
| 5:09 pm |
I am still alive...honest
It's aliiiiiiiiiiiiive...It's aliiiiiiiiiiiiive...yes I still am. Just awhile since updating..don't have much time now, but a quick snippet of stuff. Work..busy as always..kinda gearing up for election night coverage. Home..When I am there it's cool...we have decided to stay in the current apartment until Feb..then we be outtie Life..Going ok, need more money..who doesn't these days. Love..Decided I am just gonna be a big ho for awhile..might as well..no one seems to want a meaningful relationship. Thats cool..just got to find the right guys to be a ho with..lol Personal note..Did something this past Friday I have wanted to do for awhile..some may not like it..I don't care. It's for me...I got both nipples pierced. Aside from the sexual benefits, I just like the look...so there..pttttthhhtttp S. |
| Friday, October 8th, 2004 |
| 3:28 pm |
Gosh has it been that long already??
Time flys...Hawaii was great..wonderful resort, the broadcast went off without a hitch. We all drank lots and lots. Everyone was kinda coupled up though...made me feel a bit lonely in paradise. We did go to a gay club on Sat night. It's called Hula's and it's pretty chill. We only stayed for about 40 mins though. Most fo the girls were really tired and wanted to go back to the hotel. If we weren't staying an hour away I would have taxied back on my own..oh well Just playing catch up since getting back...fighting with the car dealership to get my old car paid off...grrr. Met some cute guys online recently...nothing special..just talk. I will be updating my pics soon..I got a new digital camera, my old one broke right as I was packing for Hawaii..another grrrr. Hope I bought one that lasts. Made and appearance at KoC last night for the first time in 4 months...my god it was dead dead dead..weird. Sang 2 songs..it's been so long..ugg! Took Michael with me...not we are not dating again..no we are not back together..yes we are friends and shall remain so for a long time. Lots of conversation, lots of forgiving etc etc. It's one more thing that reduces stress in my life..another chapter I suppose. Found myself in Hawaii looking at guys I wouldn't normally be attracted too. Hmmm I wonder if tastes are changing or just expanding. Kids this weekend..gonna take them to Great America...love free passes. And I have a nsty flu, cold thing..I really just want to sleep alot, but can't Current Mood:  tired |
| Wednesday, September 22nd, 2004 |
| 11:11 am |
Gosh and gee whilickers
So much has happened in a short time yet again. Things are progressing positively on the previous mentioned situation. I am still just being a support post...which is fine..it doesn't cost me anything to listen. Sorry I am so vague about it all..maybe at some point I will divulge the whole story. At the moment only Tim knows..and that is all that will. Speaking of Tim...myself, Michael and Tim had a wonderful time last night with dinner and movie. Cellular was really good..as Tim says it takes an amount "suspension of belief"..lol At any rate it was great to hang out with Timmy..he is truly a wonderful friend. The last week has been stressful to say the least. I got a call last Wed night from my brother...they had taken my Dad to the hospital by ambulance after he had collapsed. They ended up doing 4 hours of emergency surgery to repair a perforated intestine...this is his 3 major surgery in a year..yet he still keeps on ticking. He is still in the hospital...for a couple more days..in a lot of pain. I had taken last Thursday and Friday off to go down there and be with him and kinda manage my mom, which is a huge job..lol. Had the kids this past weekend and also bought a new car!!!!!!!!!!!! The Xterra is being paid off and is heading back to the leasing company from whence it came. NEVER EVER WILL I LEASE AGAIN. I got a 2004 Mitsubishi Lancer Ralliart. It's their "race" version of the Lancer. It is very fast and handles sooooooooooooooo well. The race car driver in me has been re-awakened. Watch out!!! This weekend is my daughter's 14th b-day party. Whew...and then work on Sunday. Next week I leave for Hawaii for our K101 broadcast...I get to go with one of my bestest friends and co-worker Jenn...yay I love hanging out with her and no better place than paradise. |
| Tuesday, September 14th, 2004 |
| 4:35 pm |
Oddities of life
Some people have the impression that if they force their will upon you..that you will just do whatever they say..I have never been one to follow this. So it has now cost me a friendship...and well so be it!!!! Without much specifics I will just say that I have a kind and forgiving heart..sometimes to my detriment. But it's the way I was raised. So when someone I love dearly is in need...I help them..as unpopular as that might be to some people because of this dislike for the other person..I will still do it. As I eluded too in the earlier entry. At any rate..I will not respond to this person further...thats their choice and again so be it. Everyone must do what they feel is right..and thats exactly what I am doing. It is odd and does amaze me that this person can be this way after doing the same exact thing I am doing now...being a warm heart and a caring person. Hmmm Oddities of life indeed |
| Monday, September 13th, 2004 |
| 2:47 pm |
Life
busy as always..Labor Day weekend...uneventful except that my daughter and I got to see Linkin Park from the 14th row :) Have not heard a word from the guy I met...his loss. Tuesday morning brought me alot of emotion...won't share it..I will say that things happen for a reason and Im sure that good will ultimately come of all of this. In the meantime I will continue to be there as a shoulder to cry on and to offer support and guidance where I can. It may make some friends very upset that I am doing this...but I look at it this way...I am a 38 year old man..one who has had to deal with more trauma than most...so while I appreciate the concern..I am an adult and I will make my own mistakes or successes. I will not turn my back on this situation. Peace to y'all |
| Thursday, September 2nd, 2004 |
| 5:55 pm |
Always busy...so tired
Lots has been happening..Went out on a date with Ricky(the one I met at the Bar on Castro)..we went out Saturday..dinner, drinks and then the Exorcist movie..I uhhhhh didn't see alot of the movie...hehehehe. We went back to my place after and he ended up staying the night. Ok sooo I really really like him....he really really likes me BUT is crazy busy and lives in San Leandro..so I think it is good for me that he won't be at the house everynight..I tend to get toooooooo attached when my men are too easily accessible..lol. We are gonna go out tomorrow night...if I'm alive...uggg I have to get up at like 4am tomorrow and haul a truckload of transmitters up to some radio stations in Chico we just sold. Hopefully all will go smooth and I will be home in time to sweep him off his feet :) I think he is going to come and hang with me at Linkin Park on Sunday too. A month of b-days too...this Sunday the 5th is my brothers b-day, my best friend and roomate Chris' b-day...then the 9th is Carlos' b-day..then the 28th is my daughters b-day(she will be 14 freakin years old...how the hell did that happen?). On a weird side note..Sept 17th used to be my wedding anniversery..NOT THAT I EVER WANT THAT BACK..lol...but weird...we would have been married 16 years..well if I wasn't a big homo that is..lol. Tonight I was supposed to go out to dinner with Carlos and my friend Nadine who is in from Colorado..I called them and they were going to come up to the city...but it's now after 6pm and no response after many messages...that really pisses me off. We did this whacked out, fucked up broadcast yesterday in Richmond for KSJO...the ONLY thing good about it is I worked with Gina, Kristy and Mark Zero...I will let Gina rant about this one on her journal :) I'm out..I need sleep...lots of it..before the alarm goes off at 4am. S. ps..the music I am listening to now...I LOVE IT...it's sooooooo fucking bizarre..if you have a chance check out a group called THE DRESDEN DOLLS Current Mood: tiredCurrent Music: Coin Operated Boy by the Dresden Dolls |
| Saturday, August 28th, 2004 |
| 10:25 am |
Naw, I think I'll pass
The problem with "overly" educated people....they really have the notion they are better than everybody else. Combine with the fact that they came from "nothing" and watch out...LOL. I came from nothing...was poor growing up for the most part, never went to college and I seem to have turned out okay. Why am I ranting a bit..the guy that I met last night..the friend of one of my best friends..he would be an okay guy if he could drop all the bullshit and just be himself. I don't need reminders of what an intellectual you are every 30 seconds..grrrrrrrr. At any rate, there was no connection. AND I missed a call from the guy I really like in the process..grrrrrrrrrrrrr |
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